Milo On The Rocks Please

song : You Belong to Me by Jason Wade
mood: pensive
book(s)-in-hand: His Dark Materials by Phillip Pullman

Recently...

...I've been finding it harder and harder to be happy

...I've been finding it harder and harder to connect to those around me

...I've been dreaming more and more about people I don't want to

...I've been withdrawing further and further into myself

...I've been having trouble going to sleep at night

...I've been shelved in "Lost & Un-found"

...I know the feeling I miss is the pulse-racing-when-I-see-her and heart-missing-when-I-don't kind of feeling

...I realised death doesn't scare me. My lack of love to give out does.

...I've come to a crossroads of sorts

...I've been trying very hard to change myself for the better to no avail.