Kettle's On -
The Feeling

I turn on the tap and run some water
Flick a little switch on the wall
I'm hoping you remember what I taught ya
Hoping you remember me at all

I'm strong but I feel like a mouse when you're gone
I'm weak but I'll take on the world when you're here
With me, with me

Can't you see you're in the wrong place
Will you please face it and come home
When I think about your sweet face
I can't wait for you to come home
I can see you got a real taste for that champagne but its all gone
Come home, the kettles on

I've got a little something on my mind
To keep it to myself isn't really very kind
Pouring out my heart isn't usually my style
But you gave me an inch so I'm gonna take a mile
You see

I'm strong but I feel like a mouse when you're gone
I'm weak but I'll take on the world when you're here
With me, with me

Can't you see you're in the wrong place
Will you please face it and come home
When I think about your sweet face
I can't wait for you to come home
I can see you got a real taste for that champagne but its all gone
So come home, the kettles on

Yea yea yea

Can't you see you're in the wrong place
Will you please face it and come home
When I think about your sweet face
I can't wait for you to come home

Can't you see you're in the wrong place
Will you please face it and come home
When I think about your sweet face
I cant wait for you to comeeeeeeeeeeeeee home

A Song About Being Who You Are

Strange - The Feeling

Don’t you dig this life
They call the meek
You whose feet are on the ground
And if you get too high
What goes around comes around
And brings you down

‘Cause people gonna see you
How they wanna see you
People gonna rate you
People gonna hate you
People gonna shove you
People gonna love you
People gonna do whatever
Makes them feel they own you better

‘Cause everyone knows we’re strange
(Ahh)
So why do you feel ashamed
(Ohh) Baby
Everyone knows we’re different
(Ahh)
So why do you feel ashamed
We love you all the same

That’s why
‘Cause if you feel it
And if you mean it
Don’t apologize
And you will be just fine
'Cause all they ever need is what you’ll give them
Is what you’re given
They only put you down if you give them permission

People gonna see you
How they wanna see you
People gonna rate you
People gonna hate you
People gonna shove you
People gonna love you
People gonna do whatever
Makes them feel they own you better

Yeah everyone knows we’re strange
(Ahh)
So why do you feel ashamed
(Ohh) Baby
Everyone knows we’re different
(Ahh)
So why do you feel ashamed
(Ohh)
We love you all the same, yeah
We love you all the same, yeah
We love you all the same
So don't you ever change

Your undernourished
And encouraged
And underrated
And unappreciated
And the world is turning in a different direction to us
You just look how far you've come considering
Through all the pushing and spitting and stuff

Yeah everyone knows we’re strange
(Ahh)
So why do you feel ashamed
(Ohh) Baby
Everyone knows we’re different
(Ahh)
So why do you feel ashamed
We love you all the same, yeah

Yes we love you
Yes we love you
All the same
All the same

Yes we love you
Yes we love you
All the same
Don't ever change

No, No, No,
No, No, No,
No, No, No,
No, No, No,

Everyone's got to face down their demons

Third Eye Blind - "Jumper"


I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend 
You could cut ties from all the lies 
That you've been living in 
And if you do not want to see me again 
I would understand 

The angry boy, a bit too insane 
Icing over a secret pain 
You know you don't belong 
You're the first to fight 
You're way too loud 
You're the flash of light 
On a burial shroud 
I know something's wrong 
Well everyone I know has got a reason 
To say 
Put the past away

And I 
I want you to know 
Everyone's got to face down the demons 
Maybe today 

You can put the past away 

Everyone's got their own set of problems to handle presently and demons from the past to exorcise. It's almost as if we human beings aren't complete adults (in the mental sense - belonging to an age group does NOT make you an adult) until we manage to take control of our inner demons and move on to being a better person. Life is about challenges, living is about overcoming them.

So to anyone out there (does anyone still read this blog?) who feels like they are going under and that the effort to stay afloat is just too much: Don't. You're not alone. We all feel that way sometimes. Do what you have to do. Even letting go is doing something. Don't drown, because you never know what might drift along once you are over the crest of the next wave. Ride it and enjoy the journey it brings you on.



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Now playing: Third Eye Blind - Jumper
via FoxyTunes

One Never Forgets How To Smoke

Have you ever thought about what protects our hearts?
Just a cage of rib bones and other various parts.
So it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess,
And to stop the muscle that makes us confess.

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Now playing: Ingrid Michaelson - Breakable
via FoxyTunes

Evergreen Classics

song : David Tao on repeat
mood: old
book(s)-in-hand: His Dark Materials by Phillip Pullman (final book)

Edit: on the guitar
[A] Now I miss you more then I missed you before
and now where I'll find comfort God [D] knows
'Cause you [A] left me [E] just when I needed you [A] most
[D] [A] left me [E] just when I needed you [A] most

Now most every morning I stare out the window
'an I think about where you might be [D]
I've written you letters that I'd [A] like to send
[E] If you would just [E7] send one to [E] me

I'll Be...

This song gets me. Everytime. I find it so contradictingly beautiful. Full of hope and yet depressing all at the same time. Go on, captivate me.

Edwin McCain - I'll Be


The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful 
Stop me and steal my breath 
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together 
Dress it up with the trappings of love 
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder 
I'll be love's suicide 
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder 
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And I've dropped out, I've burned up
I fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on
Remembered the things that you said

I'll be your cryin' shoulder 
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your 

I'll be your cryin' shoulder 
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

The greatest fan of your whole life

手放开

歌手：李圣杰 专辑：绝对痴心.手放开

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏人怔怔看情感概
不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪流下来伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌写着等待
最后的疼爱是手放开
我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
啃咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

When you love someone, sometimes you have to let them go.

I Want...

... somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support


She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me


I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought
And with every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to stay clear
Out of those things


But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it
And in a place like this
I'll get away with it

Here's to you my Dear.

Like a flower
Waiting to bloom
Like a lightbulb
In a dark room
I'm just sittin' here
Waiting for you
To come on home
And turn me on

Like the desert
Waiting for the rain
Like a school kid
Waiting for the spring
I'm just sittin' here
Waiting for you
To come on home
And turn me on

My poor heart
It's been so dark
Since you've been gone
After all you're the one who turns me off
But you're the only one who can turn me back on

My hi-fi is waiting for a new tune
My glass is waiting for some fresh ice-cubes
I'm just sittin' here
Waiting for you
To come on home
And turn me on
Turn me on

So What If I Am Different?

Edited 25/05/06 for the klutz who can't read chinese... not gona translate EVERYTHING. Just enough for you to get the gist of the lyrics.


不管你是什么样的人 说什么样的文

no matter your race, your language

你绝对千万不能忘记这世界还有很多其他不同的人

never forget how diverse the world we live in is

你需要打开胸怀 绝不要立刻歧视

open your heart, never discriminate

你可能每天吃的是 一晚白饭 一个汉堡 义大利面条
一个寿司 一条satay chotto matte

Maybe everyday you eat a bowl of rice, a hamburger, pasta, sushi, satay... chotto matte

只要你有那火热的心 什么都摆的平 去创造新的生命
不一样就是不一样 (想)怎么样?我就是不一样!就是不一样
我就是 我就是不一样! 不一样就是不一样 so what!so what!?
我就是不一样!就是不一样

不管他台湾人 诸葛四郎 或者他肥胖 他还是跟你一样 一样
同样的爱心彼此 彼此 你要释放 礼让 忍让 绝不希望
我只会盼望你有火热的心 什么都摆的平 去创造新的生命


Extracted from "不一样 by David Tao"

Fun with Music

Instructions: Dig out your music player under the bed and put it on shuffle. If there isn't any shuffle mode on it, it means it's about time you get a new one. Say the following questions aloud, making sure nobody's around you, in case you're mistaken as being crazy. Press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. Oh, and no cheating please.

How does the world see me?
Strange And Beautiful (I'll Put A Spell On You) - Aqualung

nice to know that my weirdness isn't a barrier to people getting to know me better :-)

Will I have a happy life?
Eyes Without A Face - Paul Anka

It all remains to be seen...

What do my friends think of me?
Your Body Is A Wonderland - John Mayer

aiyo... shy lah...

Do people secretly lust after me?
Overload - Sugarbabes

the truth will be too much for me to handle eh? ;P

How can I make myself happy?
进化论 - 林俊杰

right, I'll strive to evolve into a higher plane of being to achieve real happiness!

What should I do with my life?
Into The West - Lord of The Rings

why is this taking a religious turn...

Will I ever have children?
献身 - 舒淇

yes, we all have to make sacrifices to have children... hey! I got a song by her, so what! I was curious! *glares*

What is some good advice for me?
爱如潮水 - 张信哲

yes, I agree. That is why every moment is precious to me. That is why I cherish every memory we create together. And that is why I treasure "us" so much.

How will I be remembered?
Shall We Talk - Eason Chan

Hahaha.. this is so apt. My friends think I am a nice one to have conversations with.

What is my signature dancing song?
Not Enough - 3 Doors Down

OH YEAH. When the groove gets going, I can never get enough ;)

What do I think my current theme song is?
We are the Champions - Robbie Williams & Queen

Aren't we all? Go for it!

What does everybody think my current theme song is?
Dodo - Dave Matthew Band

now... that's not very nice of you guys... ;P

What song will be played at my funeral?
When You Say Nothing At All - Alison Krauss

May my feelings for all my dear ones continue reaching them even though I can't express them anymore.

What type of men/women do I like?
Only Fools Rush In - Elvis Presly

Such a romantic...

What is my day going to be like?
Wish You Were Here - Pink Floyd

So that I could give you a bear hug~

Serenade My Soul

currently on repeat :-

Song:The Humpty Dumpty Love Song
Band:Travis
Album: The Invisible Band

All of the king's horses
And all of the kings men
Couldn't put my heart back together again
All of the physicians and mathematicians too
Failed to stop my heart from breaking in two

Cos all I need is you
I just need you
Yeah, you got the glue
So I'm going to give my heart to you


I had a premonition
A movie in my mind
Confirming my suspicions about what I would fine
You followed me to LA, down to Mexico
Came in through the back door
At the start of the show


Chorus

Oh was a perfect day
Oh in a perfect way
You know, something had to go
You left me high, you left me low
Now as I lie in pieces, await for your return
The sun upon my forehead
It burns, baby, burns, baby, burns
An eye on all my horses
You slept with all my men
I'm never going to get it together again

How To Be Dead

"
Please don't go crazy if I tell you the truth
No you don't know what happened and you never will
If you don't listen to me while I talk to the wall
This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall
Where you've had me for hours til i'm sure what I want
But darlin' I want the same thing that I wanted before
So sweetheart tell me what's up, I won't stop. No way.

Please keep your hands down and stop raising your voice
It's hardly what i'd be doing if you gave me a choice
It's a simple suggestion, can you give me some time?
So just say yes or no, why can't you shoulder the blame?
Cos' both my shoulders are heavy from the weight of us both
You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth
You've not heard a single word I have said. Oh my God.

Please take it easy, it can't all be my fault
I haven't made half the mistakes that you've listed so far
Baby let me explain something, it's all down to drugs
At least I remember taking them and not a lot else
It seems i've stepped over lines you've drawn again and again
But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definately out
Doctor Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride
"
-Snow Patrol

Insanity....been listening to this song for the past 3 days.

Sing along with me.

A foggy day in London Manc. town

Had me low, had me down

I viewed the morning with such alarm

British Museum had lost its charm

How long, I wondered, could this thing last

But the age of miracles hadn't passed

For suddenly, I saw you there

And through foggy London Manc. Town

The sun was shining everywhere

the fog lasted for one and a half day by the way...

Missing Person Report

"Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends"

- © Green Day

So much to say, but yet I'm holding back tonight. Perhaps it's just not time yet. Well, finally finished my working stint, but I'm still a few hundred short of my target to buy a laptop before I head to UK. So....Probablyy means I'll have to taken on a final temp job. Been working on and off since Feb (mostly on) but much more frequently this June. Ergo my long absence from posting.

I'm quite worried actually. Just a mere 5 months (okay, take away a month for when I was in Europe) and I'm feeling the monotonous and mundane daily routine of a working life. I can literally feel it in my bones as the weariness seeps in at the end of the day. I'm not even doing anything physically taxing. In fact, my body is telling me it WANTS exercise! I fear for the rest of my life. Will I be able to survive the merciless grind of the working world, or will I be reduced to so much ash? Just another casualty of capitalism, strewn over at the side of the road as others trudge on by heedless of my tragic end.