Coming of age

mood: Apprehensive
music: Metallica - Stairway To Heaven


It's Jintao's 21st birthday today (best wishes to you buddy, hope you've received that card by now) and in just 2 more days, ML turns 22 as well. Got a simple gathering lined up for friday and hopefully it'll be a time well enjoyed with good food and great company. I really wonder if this coming of age is significant to them and what goes through their minds as they blow out the candles on the cakes. Their birthdays actually served as a reminder to me that a very big step is looming ahead of me in just 3 months.

Things have been moving along in spurts for me and needless to say, the gaps of stasis in between have been the more unwelcomed part. Applying to UCAS.... WAIT for UCAS to reply... Confirming my choices... WAIT for the universities to reply to me with their offers.... choosing the offer I want... WAIT for the university to accept me... WAIT for the school's available accomodations... WAIT for the British High Council to approve my student permit... WAIT for school to start. I feel like I'm being grinded by all the red tape.

That's not even the part I dread the most! It's the start of lessons I'm dreading and pining for at the same time! So eager to start life as a student once more, yet so worried I'll not manage to fit in or revert back. So eager to get back to U.K yet so reluctant to say goodbye to my dear friends and family. I think it's mainly due to the fact that I don't foresee myself coming back to Singapore as often as I did back during "A" levels. Maybe once a year during summer break. Tops.

Target flight date: 9th September 2005

How is it possible to feel so elated and yet so miserable about something at the same time?